The last week or so I have been pondering whether I should give Clomid another try. I tried it for 4 months and it did not get my body to ovulate. After that I explored the naturopathic route and have been doing that since March. It has not worked either, although for the past three months my period has come on time...which is a miracle! I am wondering if the Clomid might be more effective now that my period is more regular. I would keep the vitamins and supplements going, and also do the Clomid. I don't like the idea of the effects that the Clomid could have on my body, but at this point it is the only thing different that we can afford to try. I am trying to be careful not to let my desire for a baby cloud my judgement about this...but most days I feel desperate to just try or do something!!
This summer I am also going to be working on losing weight. The doctors have tested me for, what seems like, everything under the sun, and there is nothing wrong. What is wrong, is that I am about 100 lbs overweight, and this is the only thing they can think of that could be causing it. This is very specific to the woman as there are many women who are much heavier than me and they have conceived. For me, the weight seems to affecting my hormone levels, causing excess estrogen and therefore not inducing ovulation. My hopes for the summer are that I stick with my exercise plan, continue to make healthier eating choices and lose 25 lbs! I have committed to doing my Couch to 5km program, as well as walk...A LOT! Sam and I are going to also be walking in the evenings, and geochaching, which is good exercise if you choose the right area to walk to!
I am very hopeful that with losing more weight in the summer, exercising, and continuing to take the vitamins and supplements that I will get pregnant before the year is out! It saddens me in a lot of ways that I am thinking so far ahead, but I understand that this is a process...and it will feel good to lose more weight before I get pregnant anyways!! I am going to be blogging my journey through the summer...all the nitty, gritty details of the ups and down, and all the real numbers...yikes! I am looking forward to it, and hope that this will keep me a bit more accountable!
In other news, my sister is nearly a month away from her due date, and I cannot wait to meet my little niece or nephew!! My sister and I have always been close, and in some ways I think her baby will feel like the closest thing to my own, until I have my own. I am very excited to share all those special moments with her, and I love that she comes to me with baby questions still, even though I have never had one!! In some ways, this is like I pictured it...I get to help and support my sister through this, even if I have never experienced it myself. I have begun knitting a baby blanket for the new babe, and when I make a bit more progress, I will post pictures!
As I right this I am staring out the window at pouring rain, and am finding it hard to believe that it is the middle of June! I cannot believe that this is the last week of school. Of course, as a teacher, the work doesn't stop when the students stop coming, there are exams and study sessions and my tutoring students to help as well. I am working and tutoring non-stop right now, which is extremely tiring and exhausting! The countdown is on to June 28th, which is when my much-deserved restful and relaxing summer begins, I cannot wait!!
Monday, June 13, 2011
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
"I was worth the wait..."
Yesterday I was on a website that all these hysterical baby onsies that you could buy. I browsed through over 20 pages of them and then came across one that said: "I was worth the wait." I teared up at the thought of our little one wearing that! I am confident that when we get our little miracle, they will definitely be worth the wait!! It is just the waiting part that I have to get through :)
I am still working on memorizing Jeremiah 29: 11-13, and trying to live in the hope of that promise! If you are reading this and need a little reminder that God always has a plan for you, then here maybe this will help you also:
Jeremiah 29:11-13
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to PROSPER you and not to harm you, plans to give you HOPE and a FUTURE. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."
In Waiting,
Melody
I am still working on memorizing Jeremiah 29: 11-13, and trying to live in the hope of that promise! If you are reading this and need a little reminder that God always has a plan for you, then here maybe this will help you also:
Jeremiah 29:11-13
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to PROSPER you and not to harm you, plans to give you HOPE and a FUTURE. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."
In Waiting,
Melody
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Hello Monthly Gift...
Well here's the news...I got my period yesterday. I have mixed emotions about this. Obviously I am devastated, yet again, that I am not pregnant. My other feeling is: hooray, my period came when it was supposed to, which hasn't been happening for a very long time! I am trying hard to see the positive, but can't help feeling sad that a February baby is out of the picture. This week has been especially hard as I also found out that I didn't get a teaching job that I applied for, instead a fellow candidate that I know got it. The combination of this and the emotions that come with having a period have provided for a REALLY emotional week! Today at school I was on the verge of tears ALL day...life is so hard right now!
In light of both of these situations I called the most wise person I know, my dad. He has been the most amazing spiritual example for me ever since I can remember. He is so faithful; he gets up every morning to spend an hour with the Lord. I am not kidding when I say that he has only missed a couple mornings since becoming a christian at 18. He is the epitome of what I would want to have in my relationship with God. All I have to do is say: "Dad, you remember that verse that say God is faithful..." (or something like that), and he knows exactly what reference it is. I called my dad a couple nights ago and we had a two-hour conversation about all of this stuff. Some of it was hard to hear, but there was one thing that really stuck with me: God is not punishing me through infertility, or through my missed job, he just might be trying to show me or teach me something. I have felt for the longest time that I was being punished for something...something in the way that I lived or something that I did. My dad firmly believes that God loves me, and punishing me for sin, which everyone has, is not something he would do to me. A little bit of weight came off of my shoulders. I still believe that I need to be delighting in God, and trying to follow his commands for my life...but I don't need to tear myself apart every-time I think of my sin.
My Dad also mentioned that perhaps God is trying to teach me something. I have been thinking A LOT about this, and I am beginning to feel that God is trying to show me that I have to rely completely on him, and believe in his plan for my life. I am going to be honest, I have had a plan for my life for a long time, and I have counted on those things happening. Other than getting married to Sam, and when I wanted to, NOTHING ELSE HAS HAPPENED IN MY TIME! I wanted to get married, finish school, get a full time job, have a baby, go on mat leave, go back to work, and just keep having babies. I was going to have 4 before 32, and have a happy little family! Hello, reality check Melody...this was all without consulting God on his timing. Somehow in the past few years I have forgotten that, even though I feel these things are God's plan for me, they may not happen as soon as I want. I feel wholeheartedly that I am meant to be a Mommy, God has given me such a connection to children, and SO many motherly feelings, that I know this to be true. I am trying to remind myself that, just because it is not happening now, it doesn't meant that it will never happen. If my inability to become pregnant continues, does it mean I still won't be able to have children in other ways? Even though both of these scenarios are so hard to think about, and bring me to tears, I have to remember that God is in control, and his plan is what is right for my life!
In the past couple years I have had little relief from constant anxiety, hopelessness, tears, and "peace-less"ness, and I am wondering if this is because I have been trying to live outstide of God's plan for my life. IS THIS THE POINT GOD? Are you trying to get me to live within your plan, rather than mine? This is so hard for me to do, but yet I know it is the right thing to do. I need to ask God to give me strength to do this, because it does not come naturally for me...or maybe anyone. Living in God's plan may mean having patience for days, months or years to come for both my job and my children. How then do I deal with the constant reminders I am not a mother, or my deep passion for teaching with no outlet, or my sisters and best friends having more and more babies? This is where I need God's strength the most, because even now, I can't stop crying at the thought of months or years more of this. One verse my Dad gave me was: Jeremiah 29:11 - For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. What a promise to believe in...and I need to believe in it!
It is amazing to me how much better I feel after I have sorted out all of my thoughts into writing. I want you to know, lovely readers, that I do have some hope, even as I start my period I think, maybe this month! I know that I have some work to do in order to change the way I think about my life, but realizing this is a start, and I am going to take it day-by-day! From now on I am "Committing to live in God's plan!"!
With Hope Anew,
Melody
In light of both of these situations I called the most wise person I know, my dad. He has been the most amazing spiritual example for me ever since I can remember. He is so faithful; he gets up every morning to spend an hour with the Lord. I am not kidding when I say that he has only missed a couple mornings since becoming a christian at 18. He is the epitome of what I would want to have in my relationship with God. All I have to do is say: "Dad, you remember that verse that say God is faithful..." (or something like that), and he knows exactly what reference it is. I called my dad a couple nights ago and we had a two-hour conversation about all of this stuff. Some of it was hard to hear, but there was one thing that really stuck with me: God is not punishing me through infertility, or through my missed job, he just might be trying to show me or teach me something. I have felt for the longest time that I was being punished for something...something in the way that I lived or something that I did. My dad firmly believes that God loves me, and punishing me for sin, which everyone has, is not something he would do to me. A little bit of weight came off of my shoulders. I still believe that I need to be delighting in God, and trying to follow his commands for my life...but I don't need to tear myself apart every-time I think of my sin.
My Dad also mentioned that perhaps God is trying to teach me something. I have been thinking A LOT about this, and I am beginning to feel that God is trying to show me that I have to rely completely on him, and believe in his plan for my life. I am going to be honest, I have had a plan for my life for a long time, and I have counted on those things happening. Other than getting married to Sam, and when I wanted to, NOTHING ELSE HAS HAPPENED IN MY TIME! I wanted to get married, finish school, get a full time job, have a baby, go on mat leave, go back to work, and just keep having babies. I was going to have 4 before 32, and have a happy little family! Hello, reality check Melody...this was all without consulting God on his timing. Somehow in the past few years I have forgotten that, even though I feel these things are God's plan for me, they may not happen as soon as I want. I feel wholeheartedly that I am meant to be a Mommy, God has given me such a connection to children, and SO many motherly feelings, that I know this to be true. I am trying to remind myself that, just because it is not happening now, it doesn't meant that it will never happen. If my inability to become pregnant continues, does it mean I still won't be able to have children in other ways? Even though both of these scenarios are so hard to think about, and bring me to tears, I have to remember that God is in control, and his plan is what is right for my life!
In the past couple years I have had little relief from constant anxiety, hopelessness, tears, and "peace-less"ness, and I am wondering if this is because I have been trying to live outstide of God's plan for my life. IS THIS THE POINT GOD? Are you trying to get me to live within your plan, rather than mine? This is so hard for me to do, but yet I know it is the right thing to do. I need to ask God to give me strength to do this, because it does not come naturally for me...or maybe anyone. Living in God's plan may mean having patience for days, months or years to come for both my job and my children. How then do I deal with the constant reminders I am not a mother, or my deep passion for teaching with no outlet, or my sisters and best friends having more and more babies? This is where I need God's strength the most, because even now, I can't stop crying at the thought of months or years more of this. One verse my Dad gave me was: Jeremiah 29:11 - For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. What a promise to believe in...and I need to believe in it!
It is amazing to me how much better I feel after I have sorted out all of my thoughts into writing. I want you to know, lovely readers, that I do have some hope, even as I start my period I think, maybe this month! I know that I have some work to do in order to change the way I think about my life, but realizing this is a start, and I am going to take it day-by-day! From now on I am "Committing to live in God's plan!"!
With Hope Anew,
Melody
Thursday, May 19, 2011
It's time to break the unbearable silence...
I have had it, I can't hold my silence anymore. The thing is that I don't think this blog isn't read by anyone, so that gives me freedom! I know that I need to write my story, and need a place where I can vent and share...so here it goes:
Sam and I have been married for almost 5 years. I have wanted children for as long as I can remember, but we waited a several years to start trying as I was finishing school. Many of my friends had started having babies already, but I was able to deal with it because I knew that WE weren't ready. Finally the time arrived...we were ready to start trying for a baby. I was done both degrees, I was a teacher, and I wanted to have a baby more than a career, so it was time.
My period was quite irregular, so the first few months there was a long time between cycles, but I wasn't that worried. I began to chart my basal temperatures, and check my cervix so that I could know my cycle more thoroughly. A few months passed and I began to realize that I was having the symptoms of PCOS. I was skeptical going to the doctor and suggesting this, but she tested me anyways, for which I was very grateful. The tests revealed that I had PCOS. I had an ultrasound, which showed no cysts. It was and is still confusing because usually this condition means that women have cysts which prevent ovulation. I didn't have that, so what is causing me not to ovulate?
Needless to say I took the advice of the doctor and began taking progesterone to bring about my period on time, which would help my cycles. After two months of this, and no luck, my doctor suggested Clomid. For this I had to go to a gynecologist. I went, and let me tell you, that was the most invasive appointment I have ever had. I won't go into detail, but it was crazy! He tested me for everything under the sun, and the results were all normal! The doctor prescribed Clomid, and I took this, along with the progesterone for 4 months. His outlook was optimistic, so I was also convinced that this would work! Clomid is a strong drug, so strong that you can't take it for longer than 6 months. I realized that this could be harming me, and I was not comfortable with doing two more months on a higher dosage. At this point it had been a year of trying.
It is hard to explain just how it is each month when you are trying. The period comes, signaling you aren't pregnant, but by the time that's over you realize that trying is going to begin soon, and the hope returns. That hope grows a little bit each day, and you begin to think...maybe my cervix will do what it is supposed to, maybe my temperature will spike and stay...just maybe... You try, you have sex all the days you are supposed to, stay laying down for 20 min, keep your legs in the air...do all the advice you can find! Day 21 comes, and you go for a blood test that will prove whether or not you ovulated...however the results don't come before that dreaded event occurs yet again. You get your period, tears come, hopes are crashed and yet another month has come and gone. The due date that you were toying with in your head is pushed another month further. All the baby clothes you've looked at and the pictures of other lovely families you have cried over and been jealous of, just make things worse. You feel humiliated, gut-wrenched, in great pain and despondent. The worse part is that the glimmer of hope appears again, much to your regret.
That year of trying to have a baby was made so much harder by the fact that SO many of my friends and family were getting pregnant. Everytime I went on Facebook, I saw another friend announcing their pregnancy, or posting more pictures of their new babies. Everytime I saw a picture of my family with their kids and the outings they got to do, I would just start to tear up. After each month, the feelings that the pictures and babies gave me got worse. I felt so alone and left out of this wonderful blessing. To top it off my sister-in-law got pregnant with her second, which was really difficult to take. I couldn't believe that she would get to have TWO wonderful children...I was so jealous. A little while after, my sister got pregnant. This was, and still is, the most excruciating challenge of my life. I have never cried so hard in my life, I questioned God a lot in that time. How could he do this to me? I was convinced that he hated me. Honestly, I was so upset that I was being irrational. In the coming weeks I could barely speak to my sister without balling my eyes out immediately after. I kept on feeling like life was unfair, and that I would never recover from this. It took a few months to get excited about my new niece or nephew, and believe me, I felt such guilt over this. I was trying to be happy for her, but I couldn't do it. (On a more positive note, I am now very excited and can't wait to meet him or her in a few weeks!!) It was at this point that I realized that I needed a different approach.
I had heard of a couple success stories regarding the Naturopath, so I made an appointment. I was skeptical and didn't know what to expect, but I went...what else did I have to lose? The appointment went extremely well, he was so knowledgeable, and made me have real hope again. The downside is that it was expensive, but we felt like it was worth it, especially if it worked! The first month...nothing, BUT I got my period on-time, which was something that hadn't happened without forcing it, in a long time. This was just last month, and I am in the very last half of my second month on the supplements. I am day 24 today, and 99.9% sure that I am not pregnant. My temperatures and cervical fluid didn't do what it needed to. I am at the point of hopelessness. I don't know what to do, I think I will try the Naturopath again, but the future only holds expensive fertility treatments that we can't afford.
I needed to write this down. I needed to get this out. I am dying a little bit more inside as we approach one and a half years of this journey. The only promise I can cling to is found in Psalm 37:4 "Delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart." I have to believe this verse, because if I don't, I don't think I could get through my days. I know that seems melodramatic, but I really can't go one hour without thinking about my body, how it failed me, how we would have had a child already, how my kids will be SO much younger than their cousins, how I have failed my husband and how I don't know what I would do if this never happened. God has to be my strength through this, but it is hard to leave my worries with him. God, forgive me for not trusting you and your plan!
Well, here it is, my messy, heartfelt and honest story. I won't apologize for it, and if anyone does read this, I hope they realize that this is an outlet for all my thoughts that eat me alive. I welcome comments and suggestions, but mostly I just needed to get this out!
Sam and I have been married for almost 5 years. I have wanted children for as long as I can remember, but we waited a several years to start trying as I was finishing school. Many of my friends had started having babies already, but I was able to deal with it because I knew that WE weren't ready. Finally the time arrived...we were ready to start trying for a baby. I was done both degrees, I was a teacher, and I wanted to have a baby more than a career, so it was time.
My period was quite irregular, so the first few months there was a long time between cycles, but I wasn't that worried. I began to chart my basal temperatures, and check my cervix so that I could know my cycle more thoroughly. A few months passed and I began to realize that I was having the symptoms of PCOS. I was skeptical going to the doctor and suggesting this, but she tested me anyways, for which I was very grateful. The tests revealed that I had PCOS. I had an ultrasound, which showed no cysts. It was and is still confusing because usually this condition means that women have cysts which prevent ovulation. I didn't have that, so what is causing me not to ovulate?
Needless to say I took the advice of the doctor and began taking progesterone to bring about my period on time, which would help my cycles. After two months of this, and no luck, my doctor suggested Clomid. For this I had to go to a gynecologist. I went, and let me tell you, that was the most invasive appointment I have ever had. I won't go into detail, but it was crazy! He tested me for everything under the sun, and the results were all normal! The doctor prescribed Clomid, and I took this, along with the progesterone for 4 months. His outlook was optimistic, so I was also convinced that this would work! Clomid is a strong drug, so strong that you can't take it for longer than 6 months. I realized that this could be harming me, and I was not comfortable with doing two more months on a higher dosage. At this point it had been a year of trying.
It is hard to explain just how it is each month when you are trying. The period comes, signaling you aren't pregnant, but by the time that's over you realize that trying is going to begin soon, and the hope returns. That hope grows a little bit each day, and you begin to think...maybe my cervix will do what it is supposed to, maybe my temperature will spike and stay...just maybe... You try, you have sex all the days you are supposed to, stay laying down for 20 min, keep your legs in the air...do all the advice you can find! Day 21 comes, and you go for a blood test that will prove whether or not you ovulated...however the results don't come before that dreaded event occurs yet again. You get your period, tears come, hopes are crashed and yet another month has come and gone. The due date that you were toying with in your head is pushed another month further. All the baby clothes you've looked at and the pictures of other lovely families you have cried over and been jealous of, just make things worse. You feel humiliated, gut-wrenched, in great pain and despondent. The worse part is that the glimmer of hope appears again, much to your regret.
That year of trying to have a baby was made so much harder by the fact that SO many of my friends and family were getting pregnant. Everytime I went on Facebook, I saw another friend announcing their pregnancy, or posting more pictures of their new babies. Everytime I saw a picture of my family with their kids and the outings they got to do, I would just start to tear up. After each month, the feelings that the pictures and babies gave me got worse. I felt so alone and left out of this wonderful blessing. To top it off my sister-in-law got pregnant with her second, which was really difficult to take. I couldn't believe that she would get to have TWO wonderful children...I was so jealous. A little while after, my sister got pregnant. This was, and still is, the most excruciating challenge of my life. I have never cried so hard in my life, I questioned God a lot in that time. How could he do this to me? I was convinced that he hated me. Honestly, I was so upset that I was being irrational. In the coming weeks I could barely speak to my sister without balling my eyes out immediately after. I kept on feeling like life was unfair, and that I would never recover from this. It took a few months to get excited about my new niece or nephew, and believe me, I felt such guilt over this. I was trying to be happy for her, but I couldn't do it. (On a more positive note, I am now very excited and can't wait to meet him or her in a few weeks!!) It was at this point that I realized that I needed a different approach.
I had heard of a couple success stories regarding the Naturopath, so I made an appointment. I was skeptical and didn't know what to expect, but I went...what else did I have to lose? The appointment went extremely well, he was so knowledgeable, and made me have real hope again. The downside is that it was expensive, but we felt like it was worth it, especially if it worked! The first month...nothing, BUT I got my period on-time, which was something that hadn't happened without forcing it, in a long time. This was just last month, and I am in the very last half of my second month on the supplements. I am day 24 today, and 99.9% sure that I am not pregnant. My temperatures and cervical fluid didn't do what it needed to. I am at the point of hopelessness. I don't know what to do, I think I will try the Naturopath again, but the future only holds expensive fertility treatments that we can't afford.
I needed to write this down. I needed to get this out. I am dying a little bit more inside as we approach one and a half years of this journey. The only promise I can cling to is found in Psalm 37:4 "Delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart." I have to believe this verse, because if I don't, I don't think I could get through my days. I know that seems melodramatic, but I really can't go one hour without thinking about my body, how it failed me, how we would have had a child already, how my kids will be SO much younger than their cousins, how I have failed my husband and how I don't know what I would do if this never happened. God has to be my strength through this, but it is hard to leave my worries with him. God, forgive me for not trusting you and your plan!
Well, here it is, my messy, heartfelt and honest story. I won't apologize for it, and if anyone does read this, I hope they realize that this is an outlet for all my thoughts that eat me alive. I welcome comments and suggestions, but mostly I just needed to get this out!
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
25 already?
So a big birthday for me is coming up in a couple days, I will turn 25 this weekend! For some reason this birthday makes me feel old, which is ridiculous I know. I guess I am just having those flashbacks about what I thought about people who were 25 when I was 15, and I can't believe that I am now one of them! Getting older is just part of life, and I know that I have lots of life left, and only many more adventures to come! Even though I may not have accomplished everything that I wanted to, I have also had so many blessings in my life!! I have a family who loves and supports me, I met and married my soul mate and best friend, we moved to a whole other province where we navigated and figured out life together, I finished TWO DEGREES, and I am blessed with amazing friendships, some that have lasted over 15 years! If the next 25years are going to be this way, than I say BRING IT ON!!
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
A little less complaining, and a little more positivity!
If you read my blog, which I'm sure not many do, you know that I have recently become a teacher. However, I am a teacher without a classroom! There have been so many government cuts and subsequent layoffs that there is no room for new teachers like me. In the past few months I have expanded my tutoring and it is filling my weeks now! I just got another job with a tutoring company who finds my students for me, which is really nice! I am enjoying my current situation, and lately I have been trying to see the positives to tutoring over teaching. I get to have mornings at home, which I really enjoy. I have been in school since I was 5 years old, and I never took a break, so having mornings off has been lovely. I also enjoy the fact that I have time for more of the activities that I love, like knitting, scrapbooking, exercising (well, I'm getting there), and cooking. So, I guess the point of this blog is to do the opposite of complaining, which I do frequently. I am blessed that I have work that pays me well, and I know that teaching is something that I am called to do and therefore, it will happen one of these days!
Monday, January 18, 2010
The Year 2009...
Borrowed from Laura!
What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?
Teach my wonderful Grade 3 students on Practicum!
Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for this year?
Well, almost every year of my life I make the resolution to lose weight and get healthy. Last year I would say that I did not keep that one, but I have made some good strides this year already!
Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes, lots! Katie, Kim, Liz, Niki, Lindsey, Linda, Megan
Did anyone close to you die?
No, thank goodness!
What countries did you visit?
The USA, pretty boring.
What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
A baby. It has been really hard as so many of my friends and family are having babies or are pregnant, as I desire a baby so much!!! I know that this will happen in God's timing, but I do really hope that it will be soon!
What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
March 21-22 - A wonderful weekend away with my man.
April 20 - The first day of my full-time teaching practicum.
July 31 - The day that I was finally, finally, FINALLY, done school and my Bachelor of Education! I BECAME A TEACHER!
What was your biggest achievement of the year?
The dream that I had since I was a little girl finally came true. It took a lot of hard work and a lot of time, but it was worth it because I am a teacher!
What was your biggest failure?
It probably involves my struggle with being self-disciplined, in many areas of my life. This is something that I need to be so much better at.
Did you suffer any illness or injury?
Well I had a lot of little colds and flus, which was annyoying, but nothing major.
What was the best thing you bought?
This is sad, but a Wii! Sam and I have wanted one for so long and now we have one. I love that it encourages us not to spend the night on the couch, rather we are up and moving!
Whose behaviour merited celebration?
My wonderful husband. He was so understanding as I went through the busiest year of my life and I couldn't have done it without him. He is so loving, supportive and has this way of making me feel so beautiful and special. Love you babe!
Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
I like to forgive and forget.
Where did most of your money go?
Bills.
What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Becoming a teacher!!!!
What song will always remind you of 2009?
"I Gotta Feelin'" By The Black Eyed Peas (Sam and I had some fun dance parties!)
Compared to this time last year, are you: (a) happier or sadder (b) thinner or fatter (c) richer or poorer?
I’m (a) mixture of both because I am so happy that I am done school and ready to start my life, but the lack of jobs has been depressing.
(b) the same
(c) minimally richer
What do you wish you’d done more of?
Reading my bible, exercising, spending time with friends, scrapbooking and travelling.
What do you wish you’d done less of?
Worrying, doubting and procrastinating.
How did you spend Christmas?
This year we had three christmases, which was new. One with Sam's family, one with just Sam and I, and one with my family. We were so blessed!
Did you fall in love in 2009?
I fell in love again and again with my husband.
What was your favourite TV program?
Well I just finished watching all the seasons of One Tree Hill and I love it so much! I also love Survivor, The Bachelor, Grey's Anatomy, Private Practice, The Good Wife, How I Met Your Mother and CSI: New York.
Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
I don't hate people.
What was the best book you read?
The best book I read was "The Book of Negroes", it was distrubing and uplifting all at the same time. As for a book that isn't so heavy, I really loved "The Fountain Creek Chronicles" and anything by Karen Kingsbury.
What was your greatest musical discovery?
Gloriana, a really great country group!
What did you want and get?
A teaching degree, time to relax and rejuvinate and many new friends!
What did you want and not get?
A baby.
What was your favourite film of this year?
This is really hard to say. I really loved "The Time Traveller's Wife", "Paschendale", "He's Just Not That Into You" and "Changeling"
What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 24 and my husband made me a birthday surprise that was based on my favourite movies. Each movie represented something that we were going to do that day!
What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Losing weight, having a baby, and getting out of debt. Big feats that I going to work on this year!!!
How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
Well I have a lot more sweater vests and collared shirts due to being a teacher. Nothing much changed besides that!
What kept you sane?
Coming home everyday to my husband who is my best friend and who keeps me grounded!
What celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I agree with Laura, I will also swoon a little over Jake from the Bachelor.
What political issue stirred you the most?
The representation of women in politics. I do not like the double standards that were so evident in the American election.
Who did you miss?
My friends, both old and new!
Who was the best new person you met?
The best people I met were Nat and Rosanna. I love those girls and all the laughs that we had!
Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009.
God is so faithful and merciful in my life!!
What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?
Teach my wonderful Grade 3 students on Practicum!
Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for this year?
Well, almost every year of my life I make the resolution to lose weight and get healthy. Last year I would say that I did not keep that one, but I have made some good strides this year already!
Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes, lots! Katie, Kim, Liz, Niki, Lindsey, Linda, Megan
Did anyone close to you die?
No, thank goodness!
What countries did you visit?
The USA, pretty boring.
What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
A baby. It has been really hard as so many of my friends and family are having babies or are pregnant, as I desire a baby so much!!! I know that this will happen in God's timing, but I do really hope that it will be soon!
What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
March 21-22 - A wonderful weekend away with my man.
April 20 - The first day of my full-time teaching practicum.
July 31 - The day that I was finally, finally, FINALLY, done school and my Bachelor of Education! I BECAME A TEACHER!
What was your biggest achievement of the year?
The dream that I had since I was a little girl finally came true. It took a lot of hard work and a lot of time, but it was worth it because I am a teacher!
What was your biggest failure?
It probably involves my struggle with being self-disciplined, in many areas of my life. This is something that I need to be so much better at.
Did you suffer any illness or injury?
Well I had a lot of little colds and flus, which was annyoying, but nothing major.
What was the best thing you bought?
This is sad, but a Wii! Sam and I have wanted one for so long and now we have one. I love that it encourages us not to spend the night on the couch, rather we are up and moving!
Whose behaviour merited celebration?
My wonderful husband. He was so understanding as I went through the busiest year of my life and I couldn't have done it without him. He is so loving, supportive and has this way of making me feel so beautiful and special. Love you babe!
Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
I like to forgive and forget.
Where did most of your money go?
Bills.
What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Becoming a teacher!!!!
What song will always remind you of 2009?
"I Gotta Feelin'" By The Black Eyed Peas (Sam and I had some fun dance parties!)
Compared to this time last year, are you: (a) happier or sadder (b) thinner or fatter (c) richer or poorer?
I’m (a) mixture of both because I am so happy that I am done school and ready to start my life, but the lack of jobs has been depressing.
(b) the same
(c) minimally richer
What do you wish you’d done more of?
Reading my bible, exercising, spending time with friends, scrapbooking and travelling.
What do you wish you’d done less of?
Worrying, doubting and procrastinating.
How did you spend Christmas?
This year we had three christmases, which was new. One with Sam's family, one with just Sam and I, and one with my family. We were so blessed!
Did you fall in love in 2009?
I fell in love again and again with my husband.
What was your favourite TV program?
Well I just finished watching all the seasons of One Tree Hill and I love it so much! I also love Survivor, The Bachelor, Grey's Anatomy, Private Practice, The Good Wife, How I Met Your Mother and CSI: New York.
Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
I don't hate people.
What was the best book you read?
The best book I read was "The Book of Negroes", it was distrubing and uplifting all at the same time. As for a book that isn't so heavy, I really loved "The Fountain Creek Chronicles" and anything by Karen Kingsbury.
What was your greatest musical discovery?
Gloriana, a really great country group!
What did you want and get?
A teaching degree, time to relax and rejuvinate and many new friends!
What did you want and not get?
A baby.
What was your favourite film of this year?
This is really hard to say. I really loved "The Time Traveller's Wife", "Paschendale", "He's Just Not That Into You" and "Changeling"
What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 24 and my husband made me a birthday surprise that was based on my favourite movies. Each movie represented something that we were going to do that day!
What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Losing weight, having a baby, and getting out of debt. Big feats that I going to work on this year!!!
How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
Well I have a lot more sweater vests and collared shirts due to being a teacher. Nothing much changed besides that!
What kept you sane?
Coming home everyday to my husband who is my best friend and who keeps me grounded!
What celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I agree with Laura, I will also swoon a little over Jake from the Bachelor.
What political issue stirred you the most?
The representation of women in politics. I do not like the double standards that were so evident in the American election.
Who did you miss?
My friends, both old and new!
Who was the best new person you met?
The best people I met were Nat and Rosanna. I love those girls and all the laughs that we had!
Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009.
God is so faithful and merciful in my life!!
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